why do people choose to take life detours? When you care so much about someone, you see the beauty in them, and what lies ahead of them- the good, the wonderful, the best. why? oh why take the opposite road. Mistakes are mistakes. That's what they are. For some, they learn from others' mistakes, for others, they are the people that make them. So you have a great time with them, and you think, wow, i'm really dissapointed that the day is over. You are filled with hope for the future. and then...the mistake. And you think, oh but why? nnnoooo....take it back....why?WHY? and then you know, it's coming...and you feel like something hits you over the head, and something stabs you...because you know that you will take it like a personal hit...doesn't he want what you want? and all you want to do is close up, and shut yourself in...the walls are coming up, getting closer together, boxing you in...but you don't want it because it was so nice, how do i stop it? nobody ever taught me how to stop the walls from coming up...crap, now i have to build trust...how irritating...but it's life...life is showing me it's other face...i've had so much good the first 18 years...now it's time for equilibrium...i wish i could use my selective memory powers...it never happened...oh but it did...crap crap CRAP...it gains the more it gives...can't you see that all of that stuff's a sideshow? well, since it's taken me this long to write this, i already feel better. God, i wish i could just have the right response...and not let him think that he's always dissapointing me. I just wish that he could get closer to You. then he would know how good You are, and how wonderful it is to be with You, and that there is nothing in the world that could trade that. just work in him, use this circumstance to build him up into the man that You see him to be. I wish the world wouldn't have such a grip on him, but with your help he will come out of it...all in Your timing, in Your way. He will be a new person- reaching his highest potential.
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