Tuesday, August 09, 2005
WOW! Half of my world has been turned upside down.OH MY
I knew that I wanted to go out of state for college, but I didn't want to be in a whole new place where I knew absoluetely no one. So, I picked Georgia, because a close family friend lived there. On the weekends, I would go up to her house, and it would be so much fun, but moreover it was an escape, a safehaven from college. It felt like home. They basically gave me my own room, with a queen sized bed might I add. We would go out for dinner, go shopping, talk. Since I didn't have a car, they would always without a single problem give me a ride anywhere, or pick me up. AND NOW, they are moving back to CA. I'm going to be all the way out in GA by myself. Nobody is going to take care of me anymore. I'm going to be stuck at college all of the time, and no more deep, heartwarming conversations. I'm going to be all alone out there. It's like, this time it's the real thing. Real life.
At first, when I found out, I had an anxiety attack. Everything is happening in CA, and I have to be ripped out of it to go to GA. I've met SO many awesome people here this summer, that I want to get to know, and build relationships with. This is the first time in my life where I have made such intimate connections with people so fast, and naturally I want to get closer with them, and not miss moments of our lives together. But no, that's all going to come to a screeching halt when I leave for GA.
Do you know what else is so random? Out of no where, all of these guys are interested in me, and wanting my number or asking me out on dates. I find it ironic that they are all over 25. LoL, today at work, this guy (oh man, I don't even know his name?!) came in and bought a large mocha, and he's just an outgoing, friendly guy, so we casually chatted, and of course i'm going to be friendly so that he would give me a nice tip ;) Anyway, later that day, he came by the coffee shop, and asked me if I could come by his store when I get off, because he wanted me to translate something in Russian for him. I'm like, Oh great...So i go over there, and he comes out with this piece of paper, and he says, "Now don't laugh, but I was wondering if you could translate this?" and it said: I would like to take out to dinner. Interested? I just laughed, and said, sure- why not? He's like," I just find you so fascinating, and I had no way of contacting you so this was the only way..." But random occurences have been happening like that lately. And the guy I'm trying to set up with my friend, is starting to pursue me even more, BUT, things are getting better with Mr.Wonderful, which is the ONLY reason why going back to GA would be rewarding. Even though, the whole Mr.Wonderful Saga itself is scary but exciting at the same time. Oh yeah, reason # 2, i might actually get a car in GA since I am stranded out there and need to have some mobility. So if that goes through that will be AWESOME.It's strange, I left CA, because I thought, I am done with it, there is nothing here for me, and a year later I don't want to leave it. San Francisco is such an amazing city, and I only realize that now. Having a beach 30 minutes from my house is awesome too. Where can you get that elsewhere? Certainly not in GA!
I know that there is a reason for me being where I am right now in my life. And I'm sure i'll be okay. Let's see how good i can do it completely on my own?6:38 PM 5 Falling Stars
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